Happy New Year!

Happy New year all! Am finally back to work... sort of...

I have managed some successes over the chrimble period. I have got DB out of the spare room and into an office, and so I have my old desk back, hurrah! The room is starting to look like a spare room/office rather than a vile junk room and this pleases me greatly. I also have a new laptop! Although this was by accident as my last one finally conked it on Thursday. I totally crapped myself because i hadn't saved any of my work for months. Not at all! Why?! Whyyyyyy?! But I managed to save my stuff by going into it on the safe mode, as the normal mode was frozen completely. Won't open. Am much poorer but happy that I have a safe laptop now as was always waiting for the other one to die anyway... So peeps:

BACK UP YOUR WORK.

Oh I thought I had lost all the photos of bean since he was born too. That was very very sad. PhD I can re-write, photies I cannot replace. They were found ok though :0)

This weekend was a nightmare. We were off to London to see my bezzies, was sooooo excited. And there was a freak snowstorm which made the roads so slippery but so what I thought(am getting blase about the snow now) but DB went to ge the car to pull it up for us to get in and slid down the road into a (very very quiet) junction :0( another car slid into the wheel and wrote the car off. He was ok thank goodness, just shaken up by the shouting he got from the driver of the other car, even thogh he really couldn't help it. So we didn't go to London. I was really disappointed but of course, it couldn't be helped. Then yesterday we went out to go for a walk with the little dude when a baby deer was run over right in front of us. Arg it was awful, we pulled over and looked after it until the RSPCA came, though they said it would be put down. It was in a right state. We were down for the rest of the day after that. I still wish we could have saved the deer. The git who ran over it drove off. How could you do that? Hmmm.

Today was meant to be the first of the settling in sessions for Bean with the childminder. Oh yes! By the way, we have found a childminder :0) Found her last week, she is brill! Very gentle, big emphasis on treating each child as an individual and makes sure she spends quality time with each child on their own as well as all together, Loves to be outdoors with them and lets them take the lead in activities/crafts/walks so is always child-centered. Mealtimes are all taken together and they take their time, using it as a place to chat and socialise eating food they pick from the garden. Sounds just lovely. Very calm environment, and no tv :0) I know it is precious of me but I can stick bean in front of the tv, I want someone who can add to his life you know? help nurture him along a bit, not just babysit him for me. And some of the people we went to see - chuh! They were businesses - they had helpers and everything (the more adults you have in the hosue, the more kiddies you can have) and I feel that really takes away from the point of leaving you kid with a childminder rather than a nursery. I like the informal, chilled and personal side to childminding, rather than busy nurseries - just until he is older. Is definitely horses for courses though - to many my childminder would seem very wishy washy and pointless. Anyway, we have found her and this is a weight off my shoulders. I will take bean for three sessions a week - 10.30am to 2.30pm and come back here and WORK!!! WORK work work work work work work work WOOOOORRRRKKKKK! I will be so happy to have that time! So today was meant to be our first settling in day but she has tonsilitus! so another week will probably pass before we start it again, then that will be a week of settling in - and it may take longer than a week, and all of a sudden it will be Feb. I am now starting to panic slightly. i know it may seems tupid - I mean, why not just work as and when? But I need routine, the comfort of knowing when I will sit down next to keep up some momentum. Until bean is settled in and I am not scrounging hours from DB I shall not relax and work properly.

I suppose it isn;t the end of the world. Apart from feeling like a skiver and all round Bad Worker I suppose i do technically have until June next year to complete - it is me that is wanting to finish this year. (Oh and I *shall*, however long it takes to settle bean into the CM's it won't be three months!) And I forget that I should really get a part time job in June to pay my rent anyway (I don't want to burden poor DB with my bills etc) so I can work around them, as I would have completed the first draft and be editing. I don't know, but I might be able to juggle them both if I have actually written the thing. I dunno, we shall see but there are options.

And so as of yet I have done no actual work. This is worrying as my Sup will want to see something very soon. I should be doing it now really rather than blathering here. what a numpty!

x J