I have to confess, today has been a shocker.
I have been feeling very overwhelmed today and quite tearful about the whole thing. I have managed to do half of the work I set for myself, which, really, is something. I will finish the rest tonight.
I have to go and get Bean in a minute. I feel so sorry for him, my head is completely elsewhere and my nerves are jingly jangly. I am the antithesis of fun. Poor mite. Today is a day where I need to be left completely alone, where i can work-fret-work-fret, eat some rubbish then go to bed and hope tomorrow is a brighter one ;0) Sometimes this work just is a nightmare.
I really have left no time for finishing and am feeling totally hopeless. Well, not totally - I have no room for totally, I have to get on with it.
On a good note my sup emailed today to see if he can see me on the 20 feb, which is great because I really need some help. I really need him to properly see where I am at and then get me an extension or tell me all will be well. it gives me a mini-deadline to work towards as well because I only ever want to impress him.
I have decided to work nights on alternate weeks. So I will work tonight, sat/sun/mon/tues/weds and then have a week off nights if I can. I won't work friday nights, I need them to have a drink, wind down and spraff to my husband. To have a life in other words! I really need to push on with this reading then I shall stop panicking. I know that you should stop reading when you are reading around the topic - but when is this?! I need to read everything just in case ;0)
I am going to get my son, get him to help me make dinner (he pretends to chop stuff and adds herbs and things while I actually do chop stuff!) and this will probably be relaxing and fun. Then when he is asleep around 8.30 I will get into bed and work until I have read another two of my articles. If I am lucky they will be ones I only need the intro and concl of so I can namedrop and will only take me half an hour. Though, it being my 'night' I think I will just push on through until 10.30 and then go to bed. The more I get done the better!
x J
I have been feeling very overwhelmed today and quite tearful about the whole thing. I have managed to do half of the work I set for myself, which, really, is something. I will finish the rest tonight.
I have to go and get Bean in a minute. I feel so sorry for him, my head is completely elsewhere and my nerves are jingly jangly. I am the antithesis of fun. Poor mite. Today is a day where I need to be left completely alone, where i can work-fret-work-fret, eat some rubbish then go to bed and hope tomorrow is a brighter one ;0) Sometimes this work just is a nightmare.
I really have left no time for finishing and am feeling totally hopeless. Well, not totally - I have no room for totally, I have to get on with it.
On a good note my sup emailed today to see if he can see me on the 20 feb, which is great because I really need some help. I really need him to properly see where I am at and then get me an extension or tell me all will be well. it gives me a mini-deadline to work towards as well because I only ever want to impress him.
I have decided to work nights on alternate weeks. So I will work tonight, sat/sun/mon/tues/weds and then have a week off nights if I can. I won't work friday nights, I need them to have a drink, wind down and spraff to my husband. To have a life in other words! I really need to push on with this reading then I shall stop panicking. I know that you should stop reading when you are reading around the topic - but when is this?! I need to read everything just in case ;0)
I am going to get my son, get him to help me make dinner (he pretends to chop stuff and adds herbs and things while I actually do chop stuff!) and this will probably be relaxing and fun. Then when he is asleep around 8.30 I will get into bed and work until I have read another two of my articles. If I am lucky they will be ones I only need the intro and concl of so I can namedrop and will only take me half an hour. Though, it being my 'night' I think I will just push on through until 10.30 and then go to bed. The more I get done the better!
x J
2 comments:
"Stay calm and carry on" as they said during the war! You are putting me off doing one of these phd things with these tales of anguish. I am rooting for you out here in cyberspace; good luck!
Anguish indeed it is! I shall stay calm... :0) This stage of the PhD is definitely one of those things No One Ever Tells You About - for a good reason! Read no more!
Although I would say that this is *me* doing a PhD and probably no one else in the world is as dramatic and stressy as I :0)
All the best and thanks for your encouragement!
x J
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