Oh my Grandma has passed away :0( I am very sad.
I haven't seen her for years due to a really messy family split and after my grandad died a few years ago she sort of lost the will a bit and was put in a home. I used to write to her and since I had Beanie I haven't and I tell you, I couldn't feel worse about that. Why didn't I write? Because I was too narky to ask my Dad for her address (is his Mum). What a crappy Granddaughter I am. She was so beautiful to me when I was little. I am really sad.
I shan't go to her funeral - it really was a messy split. Me and my Dad have barely spoken for the last erm, 17 years and only in the past two months have started a nearly friendly email relationship. I did go to my Granddads funeral and it was absolutely hideous. I was properly stared at and was clearly the black sheep of the family. I felt left out and like I was intruding. I wouldn't want Grandma's funeral to be tainted by my being there. No, I shall do something for her by myself on that day.
Oh I feel so sad.
Workwise DB and Bean have gone to see his Great gran today - just left - so I should really get on with some work. I had a grand plan to work for at least five hours today and nearly get this chapter finished. But as usual I ended up cleaning up after Bean and didn't get started until they left. I didn't tell DB about my Grandma, is nothing he can do when he is about to leave the house.
My Mum will be so very sad. Grandma was like a proper Mum to her when she was with my Dad.
Oh.
x J
I haven't seen her for years due to a really messy family split and after my grandad died a few years ago she sort of lost the will a bit and was put in a home. I used to write to her and since I had Beanie I haven't and I tell you, I couldn't feel worse about that. Why didn't I write? Because I was too narky to ask my Dad for her address (is his Mum). What a crappy Granddaughter I am. She was so beautiful to me when I was little. I am really sad.
I shan't go to her funeral - it really was a messy split. Me and my Dad have barely spoken for the last erm, 17 years and only in the past two months have started a nearly friendly email relationship. I did go to my Granddads funeral and it was absolutely hideous. I was properly stared at and was clearly the black sheep of the family. I felt left out and like I was intruding. I wouldn't want Grandma's funeral to be tainted by my being there. No, I shall do something for her by myself on that day.
Oh I feel so sad.
Workwise DB and Bean have gone to see his Great gran today - just left - so I should really get on with some work. I had a grand plan to work for at least five hours today and nearly get this chapter finished. But as usual I ended up cleaning up after Bean and didn't get started until they left. I didn't tell DB about my Grandma, is nothing he can do when he is about to leave the house.
My Mum will be so very sad. Grandma was like a proper Mum to her when she was with my Dad.
Oh.
x J
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