Onwards...

I didn't work much yesterday in the end, the headache got me. Looking at the screen made me feel sick so I just curled up in the dark until I could go and get Bean. It went when I got home with him so I wonder if it was a tension headache... a good walk in the bracing wind and having my baby back made me all better again! (and some hardcore painkillers!)

Today is much, much better. I know that Bean is happy with the childminder and he is showing absolutely no side effects like disrupted sleeping or clinginess. Quite the opposite really but i still keep him close. Work wise, my house chores are done and at the mo it seems that I sit down at about 11.30 after dropping off Bean and doing any necessary chores that are just best done while I have two hands and no need for the stair gate or eyes in the back of my head. Then I sit down and check my emails and the news quickly and then I am here! Today I hope to do a *lot* of typing. I want to work now until 12.45 then I shall get some lunch and do a bit more chores (i have a drawer upstairs that needs fixing as Bean's clothes are just on the floor until it is done!). Then I will work from 1.15 until 2.10 when I shall go and get the wee one. If he naps I shall have another hour then so shan't tidy away my work when I go and get him in case I can work then too. I did yesterday then was too lazy to get it all out again so just watched tele! So this way I will do two hours, maybe three, of good work. It isn't much I know but it is a start until I get into a quicker routine/work out what works for me. It's all about momentum and confidence-building at the moment.

I am exercising later (I have joined a military style boot camp club! Is mental and brilliant, I can hardly walk afterwards) then shall do some reading in front of the box and go to bed at 11pm.

I am detoxing now until Monday. We haven't been food shopping so have been eating a LOT of toast and er, takeaways. It is gross! So I am now on green tea and water and lots of home made fresh soup and generally veg-based food, and not eating refined sugar, butter or anything fried. Only until Monday, am not a health freak by nature at the mo - I think it is because it is because I am still breastfeeding my wean and my body is still craving meat and sugar like when I was preggers! Is my excuse anyway.

Am on a mission!

x J