Thursday, 29 November 2012

'constructive panic' as the order of the day

Oh dear.  I confessed to sup that I hadn't opened the manuscript he sent yet as I am too scared and he said that he thinks constructive panic is the order of the day. 

What does that MEAN?!  Does it mean I am buggered?!  I think it does!  Oh dear.

I did the contents page, which means that I have the whole of tomorrow off, even if Bean naps :)  I need a brain break to face That Manuscript.  I shall have a look for an hour on saturday and cry a lot into a nice hot chocolate, have a cuddle from Db and work on it some on Sunday.

The contents page was very illuminating.  It is far too long, which means I have too many subtitles!  So i will have to edit it to make sense with less subtitles (please help me Sup).

It took me ages as well, about 1.5 hours!

Oh hell, this is all so awful.  I only have a month to scrub it all up!  And in that month I have Bean's Birthday and Xmas to organise! 

Am feeling blue, overtired and meh.

But pleased really, am working as hard as I can and no-one can ask more.  And I am coming down with a cold.  Poor me!

Till Saturday then.   I am going to ADORE my day off tomorrow.  Adore it.

x J

2 comments:

Bryallen said...

Don't forget - you have done all the hard work! You've WRITTEN it! Everything you do now will just be improving on what you have done, so technically you could hand it in now and almost certainly still pass!

Silly Sup to say something like that!

Numpty said...

Thank you for that *Bryallen*, your comment has really helped me to get some perspective and stamina back today!

You are right, I have written it :) It is in a mess though and probably wouldn't pass but yes, if I remember I am polishing, not writing from scratch it helps manage the worry!

Sup is silly! He says some really weird throwaway comments sometimes. I told DB and he laughed off my worry and said it was clearly a lighthearted comment and I was reading way too much into it... hmm.

Anyway, thanks :)

x J