Oh crackers am I really back here again?!
I can tell you, coming back to the desk to stare at sheet after sheet of marked work is mentally exhausting. There are no positive comments on this work, just crossings out, emphatic comments along the lines of 'you can't say this'/'what does this mean'/'repetitive'. It really is like being hit over the head again and again with your writing (and told how stupid you are).
However, I know this isn't really how it is and try to remind myself that Sup did not read through and edit this to piss me off or hurt my feelings! :) And he didn't send me a synopsis of the thesis saying it was rubbish, or tell me that last week on the phone, or yesterday on the email. In fact he is very supportive. These are, really, minor corrections to a thesis I have completely created and carried out by myself. In five years I have had hardly any intervention and am sure that Sup just doesn't want me to fall in the viva about stupid things like overly emphatic phrasing and an inability to remember than an institution is and IT not a THEY.
The sensitive, proud soul in me hates all the scrubbings out but the sensible part of me knows that once I have made all the corrections I won't look back, I will only be pleased!
So I know my feelings are irrational, that the boredom is part of submission and the mroe painful it gets the closer I am to the finish line :)
And so, onwards!
x J
I can tell you, coming back to the desk to stare at sheet after sheet of marked work is mentally exhausting. There are no positive comments on this work, just crossings out, emphatic comments along the lines of 'you can't say this'/'what does this mean'/'repetitive'. It really is like being hit over the head again and again with your writing (and told how stupid you are).
However, I know this isn't really how it is and try to remind myself that Sup did not read through and edit this to piss me off or hurt my feelings! :) And he didn't send me a synopsis of the thesis saying it was rubbish, or tell me that last week on the phone, or yesterday on the email. In fact he is very supportive. These are, really, minor corrections to a thesis I have completely created and carried out by myself. In five years I have had hardly any intervention and am sure that Sup just doesn't want me to fall in the viva about stupid things like overly emphatic phrasing and an inability to remember than an institution is and IT not a THEY
The sensitive, proud soul in me hates all the scrubbings out but the sensible part of me knows that once I have made all the corrections I won't look back, I will only be pleased!
So I know my feelings are irrational, that the boredom is part of submission and the mroe painful it gets the closer I am to the finish line :)
And so, onwards!
x J
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