I am feeling a bit worried I think!
I can't tell, because if you asked me I would say I am fine but I think the fact I am a bit fragile says perhaps I am not!
Beanie was up all last night and was reluctant to go to the childminder's today so I think he might be sickening for something. Uh oh. DB hasn't handed in his notice at work yet, which is fine but it does mean I don't know if they are going South next week or not, or whether he will be around to look after bean in the time between xmas and NYE... I have practically finished xmas shopping which is great and a real weight off my mind :) And I will feel much better when I am making Bean's cake for his birthday on Sat and we have the party goodies in for him.
Work-wise I have spent this morning re-editing an old chapter that I have decided I need Sup to look over again as I am not confident that it is submission-worthy at all, but don't know what to do with it. he has also emailed me a few more (!) pointers to do with my concl. Is good because I am gettign a fair old idea now of what the heck a conclusion is so when I come to do that it should be ok. However, I am getting nervy about my word count as I am doing so much deleting and fed up of being told how WRONG it all is. And of course it is wrong, it will be until it is right, but it is tiring hearing it again and again and again.
And I am boring. I am so, so, so boring and whiny and like a crazy professor who just drones on and is so very boring. I am fine if i can be left alone to work, but if I am made to come out of my hole I am shit company! I am worried and frightened and basically just want to work, eat, sleep, work.
So now I am onto my next chapter which I looked at last night and well, it will be veeeery slow going as I have lots of refs to find. I am getting better at tackling my 'stylistic tropes' though; I can dart into a chapter now and straight away sort out my penchant for 'via', 'drawing on,' and 'shows that' and know that some words I have sometimes starting with a capital and sometimes not... so these issues get sorted quicker. I also feel more confident that I am able to gather together all those pesky metaphorical frogs and put them in the box and snap the lid SHUT! This is a very good thing :)
x J
I can't tell, because if you asked me I would say I am fine but I think the fact I am a bit fragile says perhaps I am not!
Beanie was up all last night and was reluctant to go to the childminder's today so I think he might be sickening for something. Uh oh. DB hasn't handed in his notice at work yet, which is fine but it does mean I don't know if they are going South next week or not, or whether he will be around to look after bean in the time between xmas and NYE... I have practically finished xmas shopping which is great and a real weight off my mind :) And I will feel much better when I am making Bean's cake for his birthday on Sat and we have the party goodies in for him.
Work-wise I have spent this morning re-editing an old chapter that I have decided I need Sup to look over again as I am not confident that it is submission-worthy at all, but don't know what to do with it. he has also emailed me a few more (!) pointers to do with my concl. Is good because I am gettign a fair old idea now of what the heck a conclusion is so when I come to do that it should be ok. However, I am getting nervy about my word count as I am doing so much deleting and fed up of being told how WRONG it all is. And of course it is wrong, it will be until it is right, but it is tiring hearing it again and again and again.
And I am boring. I am so, so, so boring and whiny and like a crazy professor who just drones on and is so very boring. I am fine if i can be left alone to work, but if I am made to come out of my hole I am shit company! I am worried and frightened and basically just want to work, eat, sleep, work.
So now I am onto my next chapter which I looked at last night and well, it will be veeeery slow going as I have lots of refs to find. I am getting better at tackling my 'stylistic tropes' though; I can dart into a chapter now and straight away sort out my penchant for 'via', 'drawing on,' and 'shows that' and know that some words I have sometimes starting with a capital and sometimes not... so these issues get sorted quicker. I also feel more confident that I am able to gather together all those pesky metaphorical frogs and put them in the box and snap the lid SHUT! This is a very good thing :)
x J
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