I have my intro and concl returned and it is ok but not great.
I think I am nearly there with the intro but not with the concl. I have personal stylistic issues that need sorting out still; however hard I edit I always miss stuff. It is demoralising to say the least. I feel like such a fool! And some points that are raised sort of dig straight at my arguments and it is really hard to take again and again :( In defensive moments I wonder why, after five years of working on this project, these huge, glaring ignorances of mine are only being brought up now. But I also know, deep down, that I would rather know now and deal with them in the privacy of my home than in the viva.
I really am not sure if I can work without crying any more! I am a clown. I sit and work and get to the next damning point and yep I get on with it but not without welling up. Again. I am, to say the least, dispirited and feel like I am being intellectually mauled.
It's hard work this editing lark! I can't believe I can be reduced to tears on a friday night because I can't work out whether 'rapid onset' has a hyphen in it or not (it does). Am just so happy though that I can only do this for three more weeks then, however it is, it will be out of my hair (until the viva.) But the examiners would have to be evil to make a heavily pregnant woman cry, wouldn't they?! (joke)
Oh, and my examiners are apparently heavily into gender issues. I am NOT. I know NOTHING about gender issues. But I have to address this somewhere, somehow, to please them. I will, but I will be thinking FUCK OFF while I do it.
Generally the theme is weep, work, growl; weep, work, growl. Then eat.
I can tell you now, there is no bloody way I will EVER be an academic. Do this for the rest of my life?! No. Thank. You.
x J
I think I am nearly there with the intro but not with the concl. I have personal stylistic issues that need sorting out still; however hard I edit I always miss stuff. It is demoralising to say the least. I feel like such a fool! And some points that are raised sort of dig straight at my arguments and it is really hard to take again and again :( In defensive moments I wonder why, after five years of working on this project, these huge, glaring ignorances of mine are only being brought up now. But I also know, deep down, that I would rather know now and deal with them in the privacy of my home than in the viva.
I really am not sure if I can work without crying any more! I am a clown. I sit and work and get to the next damning point and yep I get on with it but not without welling up. Again. I am, to say the least, dispirited and feel like I am being intellectually mauled.
It's hard work this editing lark! I can't believe I can be reduced to tears on a friday night because I can't work out whether 'rapid onset' has a hyphen in it or not (it does). Am just so happy though that I can only do this for three more weeks then, however it is, it will be out of my hair (until the viva.
Oh, and my examiners are apparently heavily into gender issues. I am NOT. I know NOTHING about gender issues. But I have to address this somewhere, somehow, to please them. I will, but I will be thinking FUCK OFF while I do it.
Generally the theme is weep, work, growl; weep, work, growl. Then eat.
I can tell you now, there is no bloody way I will EVER be an academic. Do this for the rest of my life?! No. Thank. You.
x J
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