All was fine with Sup. Thank goodness.
Am still completely mashed from being so stressed this morning. DB decided I really needed a new ink cartridge for my printer, which I did but could still print in blue and red so no great hurry... (!) anyway, new cartridge wasn't purchased until after Bean was in bed so couoldn't print last night, and this morning my printer decided it hated the new cartridge and decided to die. After half an hour of negotiating it did cough up the goods but by this time I was in a paddy, Bean was still not dressed or breakfasted and I was NOT amused.
I do not like leaving things till the last minute! it was a good lesson in what NOT to do when completing!
Anyway all was well in the end. Sup said that I need to refer to my thesis more and more in my work and that the lit review is still too long. I knew this and showed him a new chapter I dreamed up last night which would take some of the heat off the lit review and incorporate (sp) the rest of the lit review I had to chop out but actually really need. If I can't make a sensible chapter out if it then apparently I can feed it into the other chapters.
I have a lot of work to do to meet my deadlines but Sup was completely unfazed and said it was very doable and that I was making good progress :) Hurray!
I also spoke to him about the fact my deadline is a lie and I have to submit early because the copyzone will be shut and he said that i should then hand in in early jan and say I couldn't hand it in earlier. he was completely nonplussed by my 'deadline' and says that for PhDs it isn't quite like other degrees and the deadline is negotiable to a point. This is pleasing, although I will absolutely still have this written for xmas as I can't bear the thought of cooking xmas dinner and being pissed off I can't be checking my refs ;0) I have a total fantasy of finishing up on xmas eve, then picking up my boy and DB coming home and we will Have Xmas, with lovely food and wine then watch tv together eating lots of chocolate and for the first time in years I shall RELAX.
Anyways sup is going to see what is going on with it all as he says it is most unfair and they need to either open so we can get our stuff printed, or give us more time after the date has passed.
I am frazzled. Am going to go somewhere for an hour and just try and relax or something. Then I shall spend an hour writing up into my intro the key points Sup made, then will leave it as the intro should ALWAYS be written at the end!
Am so pleased he is not fazed by my deadlines, and even said 'well, it looks like you almost have a first draft done here'. I do! Nearly a first draft! WHEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Oh, and I am going mad. I am now editing everything; if I watch a nature documentary I will edit the narrative - I will think 'ah, I wouldn't have bothered saying that.' I notice quickly when something is pretending to be fact when actually it is being manipulative (which makes me cross as it is sloppy). When being particularly stressed and grumpy I also edit DB. Sometimes he says things within a sentence that are kind of superfluous explanation (i.e. chatting) and I mentally put these parts in footnotes or parenthesis, and generally quite angrily urge him to get to the point (in my head). And I think to myself that if I wanted those extra bits i would look at the footnotes myself, please don't waste my time blathering on. And I think that he should just get to the point. How weird and grumpy is that?! Poor DB. Oh and I can't read anything. If I read the paper I can only skim read and I can't read a book because I feel like I have to rush through it or basically just get to the conclusion... And I am very easily overstimulated. I think work (and looking after Bean) is just taking over my brain to the exclusion of all else and if I watch too much tv I get quite stressed and feel like a million people are shouting at me. So when i go to bed I lie there for about half an hour just staring into space while my thoughts settle. (And then quite often I can't sleep, actually) Is all fine and manageable - mostly because I am coming to the end of the work so can deal with it for a next few weeks - but I am definitely becoming rather strange.
x J
Am still completely mashed from being so stressed this morning. DB decided I really needed a new ink cartridge for my printer, which I did but could still print in blue and red so no great hurry... (!) anyway, new cartridge wasn't purchased until after Bean was in bed so couoldn't print last night, and this morning my printer decided it hated the new cartridge and decided to die. After half an hour of negotiating it did cough up the goods but by this time I was in a paddy, Bean was still not dressed or breakfasted and I was NOT amused.
I do not like leaving things till the last minute! it was a good lesson in what NOT to do when completing!
Anyway all was well in the end. Sup said that I need to refer to my thesis more and more in my work and that the lit review is still too long. I knew this and showed him a new chapter I dreamed up last night which would take some of the heat off the lit review and incorporate (sp) the rest of the lit review I had to chop out but actually really need. If I can't make a sensible chapter out if it then apparently I can feed it into the other chapters.
I have a lot of work to do to meet my deadlines but Sup was completely unfazed and said it was very doable and that I was making good progress :) Hurray!
I also spoke to him about the fact my deadline is a lie and I have to submit early because the copyzone will be shut and he said that i should then hand in in early jan and say I couldn't hand it in earlier. he was completely nonplussed by my 'deadline' and says that for PhDs it isn't quite like other degrees and the deadline is negotiable to a point. This is pleasing, although I will absolutely still have this written for xmas as I can't bear the thought of cooking xmas dinner and being pissed off I can't be checking my refs ;0) I have a total fantasy of finishing up on xmas eve, then picking up my boy and DB coming home and we will Have Xmas, with lovely food and wine then watch tv together eating lots of chocolate and for the first time in years I shall RELAX.
Anyways sup is going to see what is going on with it all as he says it is most unfair and they need to either open so we can get our stuff printed, or give us more time after the date has passed.
I am frazzled. Am going to go somewhere for an hour and just try and relax or something. Then I shall spend an hour writing up into my intro the key points Sup made, then will leave it as the intro should ALWAYS be written at the end!
Am so pleased he is not fazed by my deadlines, and even said 'well, it looks like you almost have a first draft done here'. I do! Nearly a first draft! WHEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Oh, and I am going mad. I am now editing everything; if I watch a nature documentary I will edit the narrative - I will think 'ah, I wouldn't have bothered saying that.' I notice quickly when something is pretending to be fact when actually it is being manipulative (which makes me cross as it is sloppy). When being particularly stressed and grumpy I also edit DB. Sometimes he says things within a sentence that are kind of superfluous explanation (i.e. chatting) and I mentally put these parts in footnotes or parenthesis, and generally quite angrily urge him to get to the point (in my head). And I think to myself that if I wanted those extra bits i would look at the footnotes myself, please don't waste my time blathering on. And I think that he should just get to the point. How weird and grumpy is that?! Poor DB. Oh and I can't read anything. If I read the paper I can only skim read and I can't read a book because I feel like I have to rush through it or basically just get to the conclusion... And I am very easily overstimulated. I think work (and looking after Bean) is just taking over my brain to the exclusion of all else and if I watch too much tv I get quite stressed and feel like a million people are shouting at me. So when i go to bed I lie there for about half an hour just staring into space while my thoughts settle. (And then quite often I can't sleep, actually) Is all fine and manageable - mostly because I am coming to the end of the work so can deal with it for a next few weeks - but I am definitely becoming rather strange.
x J
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