Ah dear.
I have started revising my intro which in itself is actually fine. In a way it is great because I look at it now and where 6 months ago I saw half a chapter I now see a load of unnecessary twaddle. So, a lot of deleting has gone on. I am a bit worried about this because I am feeling quite ruthless today, like you do when you need a good clear out of your junk cupboard and feel quite unemotional about everything so chuck it... I might think back in a few days and be like 'oh... where's such and such a bit gone?' Eek!
BUT it is not so good because I feel sad about my lit review chapter. I can see that, as it will be incorporated into my intro, a lot of the chapter will be cut out, all the intro's and concl will go, it really needs to cut the chase a lot more and that is just fine... but also a LOT of explanatory background text that I spent ages finding references for, writing out and making sure it made sense and, well, explained stuff. i don't need that. And it hurts. It is stuff I don't want to throw out! It is perfectly decent material! I have no use for it but maybe someone else could have it... But no, it is, of course, of no use to anyone else. I have to just cut my losses and leave :(
In fairness it is the only time I have had to do this in the whole PhD so it isn't that bad I suppose. But then again. Owch. I am fond of it! It's not like I think I need it, I don't - I can see this now. But... just, owch. Weeks of work deleted, just like that.
But then I suppose once i have gut up my gumption and deleted and re-worked it then I will be half way toward finishing my intro, which is another chapter I would have spent ages writing gumph for if I wasn't grafting this chapter into it instead. So time wasted in one place has actually been time saved in another.
I just don't want to delete 8000 words! sob.
x J
I have started revising my intro which in itself is actually fine. In a way it is great because I look at it now and where 6 months ago I saw half a chapter I now see a load of unnecessary twaddle. So, a lot of deleting has gone on. I am a bit worried about this because I am feeling quite ruthless today, like you do when you need a good clear out of your junk cupboard and feel quite unemotional about everything so chuck it... I might think back in a few days and be like 'oh... where's such and such a bit gone?' Eek!
BUT it is not so good because I feel sad about my lit review chapter. I can see that, as it will be incorporated into my intro, a lot of the chapter will be cut out, all the intro's and concl will go, it really needs to cut the chase a lot more and that is just fine... but also a LOT of explanatory background text that I spent ages finding references for, writing out and making sure it made sense and, well, explained stuff. i don't need that. And it hurts. It is stuff I don't want to throw out! It is perfectly decent material! I have no use for it but maybe someone else could have it... But no, it is, of course, of no use to anyone else. I have to just cut my losses and leave :(
In fairness it is the only time I have had to do this in the whole PhD so it isn't that bad I suppose. But then again. Owch. I am fond of it! It's not like I think I need it, I don't - I can see this now. But... just, owch. Weeks of work deleted, just like that.
But then I suppose once i have gut up my gumption and deleted and re-worked it then I will be half way toward finishing my intro, which is another chapter I would have spent ages writing gumph for if I wasn't grafting this chapter into it instead. So time wasted in one place has actually been time saved in another.
I just don't want to delete 8000 words! sob.
x J
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