Grouchy

I'm grouchy today. I don't know why but everything is making me narked and not much is cheering me up.

Maybe I should eat some rubbish for dinner, that would cheer me up. Normally I would get drunk if I felt like this, have some cider and fags and chats with lovely DB. Instead I am working away, have worked so hard today, and feeling quite horrible. It may have something to do with the midwife appt we have tomorrow, all appts to do with Bean make me worried in case they find something wrong. And work is stressful as I whined on about last night. And India looming next week - I emailed my RA just now actually to ask him a) if I need to bring a tpe recorder out with me next week (as he hasn't told me yet) and b) if he thinks he can do the interviews before i leave India at the beginning of August. I don't wnt him vanishing on holiday or something! Who knows?! Not I - a large part of my frustration.

I wonder if I am just being stressy about all of this now and then it will peak, and just dissipate as I generally find solutions. I don't seem to have any coping mechanism in place atm, am just fretful.

Oh well! It will be fine. I have no specific problem I can think of (just lots of ongoing concerns) and certainly no solution, except to try and ignore the worry and plug on with the work.

Onwards!

x J