What a day!

Today has been so surreal!

I swear only half of my brain is here. I have read loads and am nearly at the end of the main reading I have to do - 27 sources of political reports and articles - and yet today I feel I have done nothing, my brain is stupid.

I didn't give up working until half six but by then I was just worrying (yes, even more if that is possible) and trying to check I had read everything which really I do know, but I can't access my memory. Is the pregnancy I think, making me a bit dumb. Tomorrow I should be tip-top! (I hope!)

Tomorrow I shall finish this last big report and then I shall look at all the ideas and info I have got so far and see where it is getting me - is it providing the evidence I need for my argument? Has it influenced my argument - is my original thesis proved or disproved? And maybe I can even get some kind of plan out of it. Then I shall check around the internet to make sure I haven't missed any vital, new sources. I still need to do reading for recent books and journal articles on my topic (the literature review never ends eh?!) and how these may influence my thesis - it may been have already been written about!! And then I need to make sure I am definitely up to date with the reports or else I will be murdered at the presentation.

It will be ok. itwillbeokitwillbeokitwillbeok...

Am now switching the laptop OFF and watching corrie and soothing my nerves with some fish and chips.

It's what the Bean wants!

Oh and midwife appointment tomorrow. I can't wait until it is over and we have heard beanie's heartbeat again and I can feel relaxed that all is ok.

x J