Hello There!

I have been missing my blog. I couldn't post yesterday because I was out and about and am sooooo happy to be able to splurge again today. It is quite addictive.

I didn't do that much work on Monday... Not as much as I wanted to do but I did do some. Yesterday we went to DB's mate's house and sat there for hours for no reason other than, well, just hanging around a mate's place... Then finally we went out to the beach in th pouring rain. It was great and the sea was actually surprisingly warm. (I didn't go swimming, I paddled). I was a bit miffed and stressed when we got back because of the hours of hanging around when I could have been here working etc. DB was a bit frustrated that I was so worried about work. Today I am more chilled though and am going to start working after this. I am pretty hungry but there is never any edible food in this house. Just a LOT of cheese and pasta. And for some reason a draw full of carrots... I made some carrot and lentil soup the other day, that was yum. I am going to work and reward myself with a proper pasty. Bizarrely, in Cornwall the best place to get a pasty is at a Spar shop. I kid you not.

I really want to go back to the beach again but we really have to work... Booooooo. It's raining again. Booooooo. Cornwall in the rain is utterly devine though. I am not Cornish but there is something about this land that feels so like home and I just adore it. DB is telling his friends we are coming back soon, chatting away while I am staring at him. Either that or I am going on about London and think-tanks and he is staring at me! I think 'well, it seems that DB just wants you to come to cornwall and breed... how lovely!' But then... Well. I am very keen on getting a job and earning some of my own money for a bit. I think I will let DB be a househusband for a few years then I will come to cornishland and take over. I really would like a bookshop. It would be the most amazing bookshop ever. It would be full of giant old tables and plants and books. And I would have second hand books I buy and sell for tourists. And I would sell fairtrade homemades cakes and coffee. And would hve reading clubs and school clubs and teach about greek myths and stuff. And I would have students from the college and uni in and get them special art books. And would sell my art and pottery in ot (have around as art and ornaments). It would be magic. And then I would go bankrupt and close down. But it was lovely while it lasted.

I also have been having a childer-wobble. I went to my dear friend's cottage t'other day at teatime. She has two young boys - about 3 and 1 and WOW it was MANIC! When I left I just wanted a glass of wine in a quiet pub, to realign my sanity and to feel happily without child. The oldest was barging into the youngest and throwing stuff and shouting, while the youngest was eating sand outside in the rain... My word. I was thinking maybe I have got this mostly-full-time Mum thing a bit rose-tinted because that sight was not for me. I just can't be like that all the time, I would go insane. DB would be good at it though. However, yesterday at the beach another dear friend and her childers came and they were perfectly charming - about 9 months and 2 and a half maybe? Much quiter and just building sandcastles/gurgling and being cute and just lovely. Apparently they also can be terrors but agreed probably not on the scale of these others' children. Much pondering about children has been had this weekend I tell you. My faith was restored momentarily - but DB was a hellraiser as a kiddie and I know mine will be too. Oh dear, what to do?!!!! Seeing friend #1 and hers made me realise that PhD and young child is not the way forward. But then they would be very young and DB can have them at the manic stage.

Hehe.

Hmmm. Better work, have been skiving here long enough. I will go and see what DB has planned for the day and wheedle a pasty plan out of him I think. Then I shall work.

I shall return soon!

x J