Nervous!

SO although yesterday went swimmingly well and I got lots of work done, last night and this morning I have been feeling increasingly worried and nervous about it. I hate this stage of a chapter or of planning, when you do know where you are going with it - but you don't at the same time. So I could have a brlliant day with lots of ideas and finish it knowing how the chapter will pan out. Or I could have a day where I stare at my notes, forget what I just read, don't really link the notes and ideas together to form a coherent argument and finish the day still confused.

This is the uncertainty part of the PhD; the part when you don't know if you/it is going to work out or whether you have finally met your match with it.

Plan:
Re-read plans and thoughts and brainstorms.

Don't panic

Don't work overly hard or pedantically on stuff you already know. Get a quote to prove your point and MOVE ON.

Don't listen to the radio

DO exercise and clear the brain

Don't think about deadlines. If you're being slow at least you're working..

Do take it a day at a time.

*REMEMBER REMEMBER* THIS IS A DRAFT! A DRAFT TO GET YOUR IDEAS DOWN BECAUSE YOU HAVE HALF WRITTEN THIS CHAPTER BY ACCIDENT - OR YOU WOULDN'T BE DOING IT YET. IT IS ALL SUBJECT TO CHANGE... DON'T FRET, JUST DO IT.


I totally knew what this chapter was about and now I am not so sure.

Arg! This goddamn PhD!!!

Wish me luck...

x J

Ps. Am better now btw. Am soooooooo grateful!