Monday, Monday...

Arf it's Monday. I am very tired and late and feel disorganised. Which is ok, but I don't feel like organising myself which is actually the problem.

Right, to matters at hand. I need to re-visit the work I did on Friday. However, I must not waste a lot of time editing it and should get down to business.

I am confused because DB is going away for about a week sometime this week. This means I will have little to do to occupy myself except work and I will be very bored and pretty lonely. So I am not that inclined to hide myself away until he goes, so I can take advantage of his company. However, I don't know when he is going. I find this unsettling because truthfully I am dreading him going. How boring and rubbish it will be. If anyone who lives on their own has any advice I would be grateful to here it. I shan't see a soul apart from maybe the man at the gym. My efforts to be more sociable have sincerely fizzled as none of us are in town at the same time and so I am blinkin' going to be on my own. And this is ok but... Sometimes you just get bored of your own company and I am bored of mine in advance. (!) Haven't said anythiong to DB. No point really.

What shall I do:

I can run, swim and go to the gym
I can do a lot of work
I won't have anyone to tell off about making the house dirty
I can watch whatever I like on the tele
I can revel in secret marksandsparks/fish and chip grub as a treat one night
I can always get on the train and go and see my folks in Manchester (hmm. don't want to without DB) if I am desperate. But I am S.K.I.N.T and need to get beeday pressies this month with that money.

It's not that pleasing a list to be honest.

Oh well, I shall be fine. I will like it more than I think I am sure. It's not that I don't like being on my own - its that I hate feeling lonely. I can't cope well with that and this time he goes I am worried I will feel lonely rather than independent and liberated from coupledom for a few days. Hmmph. I will stop whining.

I better work...

and stop being gloomy! I'm 29 and have to be on my own in my house for a week... Get over it!!

x J