Tuesday, 1 May 2012

Hmmm Not Quite...

Back yet :)

I am skiving one more day and blaming DB as I don't have Word (free trial ran out) and need to be editing my shite discussion chapter today.  I don't mind at all, am really enjoying mooching about in a productive, healing way, without Bean on my apron strings and cbeebies blathering on because I am too tired to play, and drinks/food to make ;0) 

I am being very physical today, for the first time in a while so take today as getting back into the swing of a full, normal day; sorting out bean, taking him to the childminders (nearly a mile walk away), and am doing his tea and bedtime tonight.  Am still quite tired so will do all that and collapse later; tomorrow will be my back to work day, as really, I am not due back until next week so anything I do is a bonus.

Is all about poking my head back in the door of my study really.  I was in a very different place last time I was working in there and going back feels spooky and wierd!  I will though, tomorrow, with Word (rather important) and some coffee and sit and start working through Sup's scoring outs and scribbles on my chapter.  I shall have to overcome my pride and just deal with it, even if it really hurts and I can barely face it ;0)  I won't work the whole day, just an hour or two to get back into it.  Thursday I will work more again.  I really would like to have the chapter edited and printed to forget about, and a feeling that I know where I am at again in  my work for my return on Tuesday. 

I am off down South to meet my new neice-in-law and go to a wedding (can't WAIT, what fun, fun fun) Thursday night and back Monday night, hopefully tired but mentally refreshed and ready to put this shitty past in the past :)  Only 7 weeks then until I submit!  I can totally work for 7 weeks and just put this to bed.  Even if I get a bad PhD it will be a PhD eh, and the summer - and my future - is all MINE!

x J

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