I have done nothing today.
Well, I have done housework and pondered about whether to cancel my drs appt this aft or not, decided yes, rang surgery and they say they are closed for the afternoon, I walk there to check and turns out they are closed until my appt time. So I can't cancel and anyway was a bit wibbly wobbly anxious when out (though am fine and dandy at home) so should go along anyway. I don't expect to get much from it other than advices to run and see my friends more and come back next week if I still feel the same. I would like to be signed off a bit longer, though am off till weds anyway (though have come back this week as i have to) so doubt that would happen either.
I don't even know what to say and think I will just blather on incoherently about uni deadlines and anxiety and they will say 'erm, you are doing a PhD, what did you expect? Everyone else manages?' and i shall cry and shuffle away in total agreement.
The thing is, I haven't been able to work because i spend my whole fricking day thinking about how not to feel anxious and depressed and how to feel better. All. Bloody. Day. If I wasn't thinking about that, to just feel normal and keep an even keel, then I would be working.
bah.
My kitten purred today :) She is so feral and timid and I was thinking yesterday that she might never really take to us but she purred, really loudly, and then settled herself in MY SPOT on the settee. I have been usurped :)
Is pizza and apprentice night tonight, DB and I are being slobs.
x J
Well, I have done housework and pondered about whether to cancel my drs appt this aft or not, decided yes, rang surgery and they say they are closed for the afternoon, I walk there to check and turns out they are closed until my appt time. So I can't cancel and anyway was a bit wibbly wobbly anxious when out (though am fine and dandy at home) so should go along anyway. I don't expect to get much from it other than advices to run and see my friends more and come back next week if I still feel the same. I would like to be signed off a bit longer, though am off till weds anyway (though have come back this week as i have to) so doubt that would happen either.
I don't even know what to say and think I will just blather on incoherently about uni deadlines and anxiety and they will say 'erm, you are doing a PhD, what did you expect? Everyone else manages?' and i shall cry and shuffle away in total agreement.
The thing is, I haven't been able to work because i spend my whole fricking day thinking about how not to feel anxious and depressed and how to feel better. All. Bloody. Day. If I wasn't thinking about that, to just feel normal and keep an even keel, then I would be working.
bah.
My kitten purred today :) She is so feral and timid and I was thinking yesterday that she might never really take to us but she purred, really loudly, and then settled herself in MY SPOT on the settee. I have been usurped :)
Is pizza and apprentice night tonight, DB and I are being slobs.
x J
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