I don't know what to do...
I managed to get Word (OMG £80 later) installed on my computer which I am not kidding took all afternoon! I also sat in my office to do it, flipped my calendar from March to May, wrote in bits and bobs and started looking at the criticisms of the terrible discussion chapter. I am very pleased with this effort and see all this as progress seeing as all I did in the morning was avoid it, cry a bit and feel sad.
I decided that I should just have a wee look and i did, and i cried a bit (again) about how awful it all was, at how overwhelming finishing at all felt and references and appendices and all proof read and UGH and sort of thought maybe I could just cry my way through the whole thing but at least hand something in. then I stopped moping so much ;0) I didn't actually do any work though! BUT I feel guilty about that and like I ought to do something about it which is a huge improvement :)
Tomorrow I have a hospital appt (for another health issue - when it rains it pours it seems) which I hope will come to nought and I shall be back to work proper on thursday. Ah I will work tomorrow night. I will do the criticisms tomorrow night.
I have no idea how to get back into my lit review but keep telling myself that I have it all planned out.
The problem is that I just don't want to do it any more at all. But then again, I do want my PhD. I am very unmotivated and a complete eeyore. Ask me again tomorrow.
I have seven weeks on friday to finish.
x J
I managed to get Word (OMG £80 later) installed on my computer which I am not kidding took all afternoon! I also sat in my office to do it, flipped my calendar from March to May, wrote in bits and bobs and started looking at the criticisms of the terrible discussion chapter. I am very pleased with this effort and see all this as progress seeing as all I did in the morning was avoid it, cry a bit and feel sad.
I decided that I should just have a wee look and i did, and i cried a bit (again) about how awful it all was, at how overwhelming finishing at all felt and references and appendices and all proof read and UGH and sort of thought maybe I could just cry my way through the whole thing but at least hand something in. then I stopped moping so much ;0) I didn't actually do any work though! BUT I feel guilty about that and like I ought to do something about it which is a huge improvement :)
Tomorrow I have a hospital appt (for another health issue - when it rains it pours it seems) which I hope will come to nought and I shall be back to work proper on thursday. Ah I will work tomorrow night. I will do the criticisms tomorrow night.
I have no idea how to get back into my lit review but keep telling myself that I have it all planned out.
The problem is that I just don't want to do it any more at all. But then again, I do want my PhD. I am very unmotivated and a complete eeyore. Ask me again tomorrow.
I have seven weeks on friday to finish.
x J
3 comments:
Hey Jayney
Sorry to hear your health is giving you grief on top of all that baby nightmare and PhD nonsense :(( Read your post and thought of this blog... http://thethesiswhisperer.wordpress.com/2012/05/08/the-valley-of-shit/ Have you seen it? Looks like just the place you're in, so hopefully it'll give you a little, um, don't know what. Cheer! :) Good luck at the hospital!! xxB
Hi Jayney, good luck. I believe you can do this, I really do. 7 weeks of hell and a lifetime of freedom? That seems doable. And if you can do it, then maybe so can I! Clare (who, according to her supervisor, has lost her rhetorical voice. Aggh!)
Thanks for your comments!
ah my health is GOOD! I have a clean bill! I am so bloody relieved. Thanks for the link B!
Clare the fact you have lost your rhetorical voice made me actually laugh out loud. What does that even mean?!
Thanks for your support guys, I sooooo needed it and do really feel better for it. :) x J
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