I am hungover again :0( I am so bad.
In my defence I have good reasons. 1) I had a breakthrough with my PhD yesterday - finally! I realised what my discussion chapter was going to be based around, and therefore what the crux of my thesis is. Which is rather nifty. 2) DB was home for the first time in nearly a week! yes, I was single mom for five whole days. I loved it actually, fortunately because I have some lovely friends who kept me company during the day. With a toddler the key is to be out of the house, particularly when it is as small as mine so by the end of the day I was knackered! Working was hard and largely didn't get done I have to confess. And 3) DB and I have been thinking about not bothering with the whole massive wedding affair (it is getting way out of hand! it will be the wedding of the century at this rate!) and might elope. I am not joking! We were thinking about gretna green but it is far away for the dude to travel and we need birth certificates of which I have none, would have to order bla bla. So we are thinking to go where we got engaged as we love it there. Get wed, just the three of us and strangers for witnesses, not tell a soul, and celebrate with a fancy spa hotel for a couple of nights. Bliss! OR we could get married and hop on a plane and go on holiday for a week, which is the preferred option but we are short on time seeing as we are moving house and have people coming to visit. Obviously getting married in this way is rather selfish but we hope to appease our Mums (we have no Dads) by saying that we want to have another baby soon, which in fact we do. Hurrah! And we can always have a blessing and party another time, when we are more into it ;0) The wedding venue is being a very expensive pain, I don't want to be 'given away', I don't want certain family coming but can't get the guts up to tell them, some key people can't come, I don't want to wear a traditional wedding dress, I don't want to be a show pony for the day, I don't want a wedding cake or top table or any of it! I really am not into it at all! So DB and I thought what we really want and it is just to be married, rather than a wedding, So we talked a lot about that over a bottle of wine last night. Not sure if we will really go through with it, but I am game! I know you can have a wedding without any of these things, but at the end of the day when you have 100 guests coming it will have to be structured in some way and certain traditional boxes ticked (like walking up an aisle and having a venue and nice food and music and stuff which is actually a PITA to organise, am not enjoying it at all). And we don't really want to wait until next year either. Which is ace because I am super keen to have another baby soon :0) I aim to finish the PhD in March but definitely by the end of May so as long as I don't pop before then. I know there is my VIVA to think about too, not sure when that will be - is so hard to guess! I reck maybe I should avoid having a baby before July... we shall see.
I have a heating gas man coming round in a bit which is the only thing coming between me and the whole shop full of schnaffles ;0) Am starving today. munchies.
Better get my work out. I have been spending the morning perusing holiday deals, looking at floral maxi dresses to get married in and wondering if a sausage or bacon sandwich would be best. I have neither sausages nor bacon so I am sad.
I have a few more nasty articles to read then should be on the open road with reading material that doesn't seem to clog up my mouth as I read. I am hoping to finish reading at the end of July... please please finish! My PhD friend was badgering me to start writing. she says I should write all the time. but how can I when I don't know what to say and my ideas and thoughts are changing all the time as a consequence of reading? I felt some self doubt but then decided to forge on in the way that suits me best.
Laters!
x J
In my defence I have good reasons. 1) I had a breakthrough with my PhD yesterday - finally! I realised what my discussion chapter was going to be based around, and therefore what the crux of my thesis is. Which is rather nifty. 2) DB was home for the first time in nearly a week! yes, I was single mom for five whole days. I loved it actually, fortunately because I have some lovely friends who kept me company during the day. With a toddler the key is to be out of the house, particularly when it is as small as mine so by the end of the day I was knackered! Working was hard and largely didn't get done I have to confess. And 3) DB and I have been thinking about not bothering with the whole massive wedding affair (it is getting way out of hand! it will be the wedding of the century at this rate!) and might elope. I am not joking! We were thinking about gretna green but it is far away for the dude to travel and we need birth certificates of which I have none, would have to order bla bla. So we are thinking to go where we got engaged as we love it there. Get wed, just the three of us and strangers for witnesses, not tell a soul, and celebrate with a fancy spa hotel for a couple of nights. Bliss! OR we could get married and hop on a plane and go on holiday for a week, which is the preferred option but we are short on time seeing as we are moving house and have people coming to visit. Obviously getting married in this way is rather selfish but we hope to appease our Mums (we have no Dads) by saying that we want to have another baby soon, which in fact we do. Hurrah! And we can always have a blessing and party another time, when we are more into it ;0) The wedding venue is being a very expensive pain, I don't want to be 'given away', I don't want certain family coming but can't get the guts up to tell them, some key people can't come, I don't want to wear a traditional wedding dress, I don't want to be a show pony for the day, I don't want a wedding cake or top table or any of it! I really am not into it at all! So DB and I thought what we really want and it is just to be married, rather than a wedding, So we talked a lot about that over a bottle of wine last night. Not sure if we will really go through with it, but I am game! I know you can have a wedding without any of these things, but at the end of the day when you have 100 guests coming it will have to be structured in some way and certain traditional boxes ticked (like walking up an aisle and having a venue and nice food and music and stuff which is actually a PITA to organise, am not enjoying it at all). And we don't really want to wait until next year either. Which is ace because I am super keen to have another baby soon :0) I aim to finish the PhD in March but definitely by the end of May so as long as I don't pop before then. I know there is my VIVA to think about too, not sure when that will be - is so hard to guess! I reck maybe I should avoid having a baby before July... we shall see.
I have a heating gas man coming round in a bit which is the only thing coming between me and the whole shop full of schnaffles ;0) Am starving today. munchies.
Better get my work out. I have been spending the morning perusing holiday deals, looking at floral maxi dresses to get married in and wondering if a sausage or bacon sandwich would be best. I have neither sausages nor bacon so I am sad.
I have a few more nasty articles to read then should be on the open road with reading material that doesn't seem to clog up my mouth as I read. I am hoping to finish reading at the end of July... please please finish! My PhD friend was badgering me to start writing. she says I should write all the time. but how can I when I don't know what to say and my ideas and thoughts are changing all the time as a consequence of reading? I felt some self doubt but then decided to forge on in the way that suits me best.
Laters!
x J
