Wednesday 29 February 2012

Sooooo Poorly!

Oh crikey, today I am even more ill!

I can't work today :0(  My fingers ache, I shiver - I can't move off the settee.  I got Bean off to the childminders (oh lord that was hideous) and have to pick him up again later...  but other than that am good for nothing but watching tv and shivering in three tops, a fleece and with the fire on! 

The worst thing is how terribly guilty and worried I feel about work.  I cannot afford to have time off, I am a week behind!  I keep telling myself that any work I do today would be rubbish anyway, most likely incoherent and would probably take all day to do what would normally take an hour...  And i should probably switch off today and come back fighting fit tomorrow.

I am really stressy and guilty about it all though :0((((

x J

Tuesday 28 February 2012

Rough!

I am ill ill illlllllll.

But I have worked really hard!  Sadly with tons of medicine I am still functioning and so have to sit at my desk ;0)  it is only reading and writing (yes, I know) so is ok.  I have spent the morning reading through the last of my notes of olde and adding them to my plan of ideas, and have come up with a working title for my discussion.

My plan this aft is to work out subheadings for my discussion chapter, work out my thesis' argument and focus *once and for all*, instead of changing my mind about what I want to write about/being unsure of my argument every five minutes (according to what I just read!) and then work the lit around this.  The I would like to open the lappy top and write these things in and, therefore, start the writing process.

Huzzahs.

Actually I am dying for an excuse to just cuddle up on the settee and stare into space but sadly as I can think, I can work.  Boo!

I only have an hour or so before I have to get the wean; I can't believe how fast today is going!

x J

Monday 27 February 2012

Busy, bit worried but okay

Hello!

It has been a while... I have been away, largely because I have not been writing!

I had to have last week off because Bean got sent home from the childminders for being poorly, and when I did get to work I had serious reading to do.  I have, however, now completely finished my reading!  Well, as much as I can say it is ever finished, it is finished.  My Sup told me that my examiners will bear in mind that my work is always in progress and cannot know everything, and if I do miss something out as long as I swot up on it for the VIVA all should be well...  So I feel more relaxed about that.  Anyway, now the reading is done I have to write!

My friend says that I should attempt to write 500 words a day on *anything*.  My Sup also said to write anything, just have it down and do NOT be writing new stuff 'within coo-ing distance of submission'.  He fidgeted when I said that I will have my first draft done with 5 weeks to go before submission.  I think this really is down to the wire!  The writing is not a problem - starting it is.  So I am here on Monday night so I don't start work tomorrow faced with a mountain of 'writing' and get the Fear, and writer's block.  Also, I have the flu...  I am dosed up to the max and completely ignoring it.  It is my first cold/flu issue since I had Bean so I am most nonplussed by it all and am reminded of how unpleasant and debilitating it can be.  Poor DB, I am so unsympathetic when he is ill ;0)  So yes, a bit of work now to de-stress for tomorrow and an early night are in order for me.

What else...  Ah yes, Db and Bean didn't go to the South during the weekend after all (as Bean was ill and Db lazy) so are going this weekend which is great for me.  I shall have the whole of sat, sun and mon to write away.  I will also exercise (ug haven't been running for a week due to looking after bean and being ill, and am feeling the stress settle back on my shoulders again) and see my uni friend on Saturday night for some tv watching and pizza eating.  This will break up the weekend, give me something to look forward to, give me some company and hopefully make my work hours more productive (unlike last time eek).

So that is me.  I am now officially writing up ;0).  I have realised that the intro, lit review and discussion chapters all interlink and so will probably have them all open at the same time so I can put bits in as they appear in references/come to me.  I think at the mo it is a bit like when playing solitaire in cards or finishing a jigsaw and you can make several moves all really quickly rather than just staring at it all and wodnering where the chuff you can go next.  This is good, or will be once I have broken through the 'starting to write' thing.  My Sup said that the intro and discussion chapters hould completely intermesh, which makes sense considering the discussion is the conclusion.  I always just copy and paste my conclusion from my intro and then just fiddle with it a bit in my chapters anyway :0).

So I am off.  To write.  Or to eat tea and veg out feeling sorry for myself until tomorrow.  I shall definitely get the pile of notes from my desk and fan them out above my 'mind map' of themes and references all over the floor.  I might even try and work out what I want to call this chapter - that might help focus me a bit.

Oh, and I have Word back.  Thank goodness!

x J

Oh, tea is ready!  There you are then, I shall skive another day!

Tuesday 21 February 2012

Writing!

I saw my sup yesterday...  It was a good meeting, lovely to have someone talk to me about my work who knows more about it than I do.

I learnt that I have to stop reading now.  That actually at this stage it is not time to start learning more, but to work with what I know.  I am so happy and actually think I just needed someone to give me permission to stop reading.  The articles I still have to read (about 25 journal articles) are always there on my kindle so I can get them out and skim read for a reference/quote when I am writing about something relevant.  For old skool texts that are used by undergrads/MA students I have been advised to put them in the biblio but waste no time reading/re-visiting them as my knowledge now is likely to be more up to date and developed.  Yay!  I have been advised to write and write, and if I can't write then at least think of sub headings for any one chapter and then raid my notes for quotes to put in them.  I can jiggle these around later and are a good way of getting words down and forming ideas to write around.  I shall do this.  I learnt that the discussion chapter is actually the conclusion so I should write as if I am doing a conclusion: summation of the thesis, what this means/why it matters and then the implications of this.  Is not complicated.

I am bummed at the moment though because, although I have my laptop back, it does not have Word.  So I am having to write on some crummy Word-a-like that is nonsense.  Consequently, the formatting is out of the window, the spacing is all wrong, spellcheck does not work and the wordcount doesn't exclude footnotes and is buried in some file instead of nicely at the bottom for me.  And endote doesn't work with it.  I feel like I am working with blinkers on!  I will have to ask DB (again) to fix me some Word out asap.

Today has been a bit of a disappointing work day.  I have spent it doing admin - saving and filing docs so I can open the right ones without overwriting, and also copying other stuff so I can write on this stupid work-a-like and not mess up old work.  Such a pain.  I am scared of starting the discussion chapter and my brain will not cooperate.  I think I have sorted out the subheadings but really, with this non Word programme it only feels like I am playing at writing.  I can't really get into it when I feel in the back of my mind that I might have to get rid of it all anyway or re-write it.  (This is probably just an excuse mind.)

I cannot wait to finish this and hand it in in two months time.  And I am also completely terrified.  I have sooooo much to do and so much of it is finickety attention to detail stuff that I just *hate*.  I just have to keep thinking about when I finish and what an amazing summer I am going to have... :0)

Better get on!

x J

Thursday 16 February 2012

Am Back

Phew! 

My laptop died last weekend hence no posting.  Luckily all my docs were saved...  now I have a new hard drive and all new shiny stuff which is nice.  nearly fogot all my login details for this here blog tho!  Was very frustrating seeing it on the net but not being able to get into it!

I am most happy at the moment.  I have definitely stopped crying and being a crying moron.  I decided instead to work.  A lot.  I have worked a LOT.  I have also been jogging twice and this has made me feel much better so i shall continue this. 

The week without my laptop ahs been lovely.  No internet.  No distractions.  No writing ;0)  I have been reading.  reading, reading, reading.  I read 7 journal articles in five hours on Tuesday.  My hand hurts from note -taking.  This evening I am brain dead from taking in so much info.  Though I have to say I have really learnt a lot!

This weekend I am reading two Most Important books and on Monday I am seeing my sup and getting more books from the library.  Next week is my last official reading week.  I need to re-draft my humanitarian chapter and I have a skeleton plan of my discussion chapter I want to write up.  I have also planned my lit review chapter!  All go, all go.

I am seeing my lovely PhD friend tomorrow.  we are due to finish at the same time so I shall try not to be too horribly jealous of her near-finished organisation!

x J

Thursday 9 February 2012

Can only get better

Now the child is in bed and I can work again I am calmer.

I am going to read at least two journal articles now and will work again tomorrow night.  Db has said he will look after bean a lot this weekend which is excellent news for me, and he said he will need to go South soon to see family so will take Bean and let me have a weekend to myself. 

Feeling slightly calmer in that I have stopped crying, but still feeling very antisocial!

I just want to work!

Got to have some dinner now though, then I shall work!  No bed for me until 11pm at the earliest.

x J

Ohhhhh

I have to confess, today has been a shocker.

I have been feeling very overwhelmed today and quite tearful about the whole thing.  I have managed to do half of the work I set for myself, which, really, is something.  I will finish the rest tonight. 

I have to go and get Bean in a minute.  I feel so sorry for him, my head is completely elsewhere and my nerves are jingly jangly.  I am the antithesis of fun.  Poor mite.  Today is a day where I need to be left completely alone, where i can work-fret-work-fret, eat some rubbish then go to bed and hope tomorrow is a brighter one ;0)  Sometimes this work just is a nightmare.

I really have left no time for finishing and am feeling totally hopeless.  Well, not totally - I have no room for totally, I have to get on with it.

On a good note my sup emailed today to see if he can see me on the 20 feb, which is great because I really need some help.  I really need him to properly see where I am at and then get me an extension or tell me all will be well.  it gives me a mini-deadline to work towards as well because I only ever want to impress him. 

I have decided to work nights on alternate weeks.  So I will work tonight, sat/sun/mon/tues/weds and then have a week off nights if I can.  I won't work friday nights, I need them to have a drink, wind down and spraff to my husband.  To have a life in other words!  I really need to push on with this reading then I shall stop panicking.  I know that you should stop reading when you are reading around the topic - but when is this?!  I need to read everything just in case ;0) 

I am going to get my son, get him to help me make dinner (he pretends to chop stuff and adds herbs and things while I actually do chop stuff!) and this will probably be relaxing and fun.  Then when he is asleep around 8.30 I will get into bed and work until I have read another two of my articles.  If I am lucky they will be ones I only need the intro and concl of so I can namedrop and will only take me half an hour.  Though, it being my 'night' I think I will just push on through until 10.30 and then go to bed.  The more I get done the better!

x J

More reading

Yesterday I whizzed through four journal articles, and today I plan to do the same!

I am a bit stressed!  The more I read, the less I am aware I know...  When will I know enough?!  When can I stop reading?  At this rate I shall be reading for weeks but I have to have finished by the end of next week, and then be reay to start writing the discussion.  I have a rough plan for the discussion but that is all.  how on earth this time in two weeks I will be busy writing away I don't know.  And I only have two weeks to write it.  It normally takes me months to write a new chapter!  Then I think to myself that the discussion is like the conclusion really, so just rounding up old stuff and having a chinwag about it...  but I know it is more than that really.  Oh dear.  Then, I have two weeks to write a lit review!  two weeks!  WTF.  And the two weeks for a methodology, and two weeks for the intro/concl and then hand in time.

I think I am up shit creek?!  I don't know...  Lots of it is planned and written to an extent...  I was thinking last night maybe i should ask for an extension.  But would I use it, or just sit around eating cake for an extra month?!!!  Maybe I need the pressure.  Maybe I can do it.

Anyway.  Re: wedding dilemma, I am not going and will take the heat if everyone thinks I am rude.  And have the four days here to myself.  I will have to take time out to meet my new neice/nephew around then and I have another baby to meet in London.  I wan't going to go and see that baby, but it is one of my bestest friends and is the weekend before my b'day too (which I am working on) so will go for the night, see the bubba, then get very drunk and come back for more work.  This is good as it balances out the work horror.

Think I am going to have to start some late nights...  Oh I dread it.  On my own, fine.  With a Bean to look after it is horrible.  I am such a bad mum when I am so tired, I just want to sleep!  I just wonder if i should get an extension and give myself more time.  But I just want to get it done!

x J  

Wednesday 8 February 2012

Got my mojo back

Yup siree.

After the shittest couple of weeks I am feeling much better and my life laundry kerfuffle is also going well, starting with the fact that I found a bank card I lost ages ago so couldn't log in to see my account (is an old bank card, old account and so have no idea what is going on with it!) and the bank is a train ride away!  Plus I don't know any new numbers they tell me I need to know for security!  I know nothing.  Anyway, managed to log in with the card and see that i am wonderfully not overdrawn and that has calmed me loads (one of those niggles you know, that grows and grows but you just daren't know the truth ;0)).  I have almost signed up to do the london to brighton cycle ride in June (only for the party afterwards I confess and to get some nicer thighs!) and am considering another triathlon.  Exercise wise I am giving myself until this weekend off then I have to get out and run around.  I can feel my flab undulate around my middle when I walk which makes me feel rank. 

This week I am concentrating on getting into my reading again, which I have just started to do (before I found my bank card and needed to log in to see what drama there may be!).  I am not doing any references, editing or anything else this week or next.  I shall start introducing more work in two weeks time when I am on a roll with this.  One thing at a time.

I now have to do some online shopping which consists of ticking boxes and pressing send.  Then computer is off and I have to read four journal articles today.  I am reading one that is most pleasing and filling in my huge gap in the lit regarding aid/humanitarianism.  I have been neglecting this in favour of reading about my other topics but this one needs some serious attention.  I feel I can get into it now I have polished off my political chapter.  My humanit chapter is the next to be edited, after I have written the first draft of the discusssion.  I am also working tonight.  just for an hour, to get back into working eventimes.

I have a personal dilemma re: work and personal life.  I have a wedding I have been invited to on the 7 April - easter down South for someone I am not that close to.  DB is going though and without the PhD I would go too...  But it would take four/five days out of my PhD time to go and my draft is in for the 27 april (at the latest, I really want it done for the 22nd)!  I cannot go?!  My sister in law is due her baby around that time so if she popped in time and we could see her, new baby and go to the wedding that would be great, as I *have* to go and see the bubba, of course. My PhD is not *that* important ;0)  However, this is not likely which would mean we go down, spend four days going to the wedding (travelling there takes a whole day) then come home only to go back and meet the baby.  This would take so much of my time?!  I can't!  But I feel like a cow not going to a wedding because I have to work?!  Oh dear.  Why do we live so far away from everyone?  I have a good friend's wedding on the 5 may - three weeks before my submission date and also down South (arg) but I am definitely going to that, he is a dear friend and I will probably need a break by then.

So do I go down south twice in April, or just the once to see the baby and stay up here the other time with four days of work and the house to myself?  I want to do the latter but will feel really selfish and immature not going to a wedding for work.  I just feel that everything is scrapped this year because of work - even xmas and new year and stuff were quiet because of work (and my birthday and of course, if I don't go to the wedding, easter too) but this is fine and how it should be.  After June I will be everywhere seeing everyone and all smiley.  Till then, I am afraid i am a walking talking PhD student nearing submission.  Though only other PhDs would understand what that means ;0).  Arf,  if anyone has any advices I would love to hear them!

laters y'all!

x J

Tuesday 7 February 2012

Knots

Ok.  Work is a big mess!

I have been having a 'life laundry' day, facing all the stuff I have been happily keeping hidden.  I have made an appt for the docs and cleaned my study.  All my notes were all over the place from editing which I thought was ok, but am feeling better now they are re-filed (in piles on my desk!).  I have vacuumed and it is all nice.  So I thought after lunch I will come and work but for some reason I am finding it difficult to focus.

Why can't I focus?
* Because I feel really behind and don't think I can meet my deadline, but I have to.
* Which means I have to work *really* hard, a *lot* and I don't want to.  I am scared!  I am so tired and fidgety!
* I don't know what to do first.  I have to do references, re-draft two other chapters, read for the discussion and lit review chapters and write a discussion chapter this month.

I think I feel like it is 'all or nothing' now.  I have to either work constantly, feverishly, to the exclusion of all else, or not at all.  That just a bit of work for a few hours will be nowhere near enough.  But because that is all I can offer at the moment (I can't do a week of fevered work in a day ;0)) it all seems hopeless.  My plans are becoming more squished, my timelines more challenging and the feeling of completing the work is, er, nonexistent.

I need a cheerleader!  I need to rouse myself :0) 

1)  I have moved the deadline to a scary 27 April to buy me a few more days.  This will give me precisely ONE month to edit before my submission on the 31 May.  But if I work well on this side of the deadline it should be ok. 

2) Bean will be going an extra day a week to the childminder (aw poor thing) in April which will be worth its weight in gold.  DB will also be taking bean to the South I think for a weekend so I can work (ug and we know what happened last time!)  Also, DB will be taking Bean to swimming lessons from this saturday which will leave me a clear two hours to work that is definite every week.  This all adds time.

3) I have to start somewhere!

4)  It is only for 11 weeks.  Then it shall be written, edited and referenced.  Don't fret pet.

5)  Go through articles on Kindle and remind self of where am at.  Find old reading lists and remind self of where I am at.  What about editing?  Should I edit now as it is niggling me?  Nooooo *Leave editing for later date*.  Attack when am on a roll work-wise, or it can just be procrastination and hiding away from writing new stuff.  Better to have new stuff written and old stuff to tinker with late into the night than the pressure of having only half of it written - even if that half is really, really good ;0)

6)  Set small goals!  So, discussion draft needs to be done for Sunday 12 March.  Try to get it finished for Friday the 10 march then get DRUNK with Mr J.  Email it to Sup on Sunday and plan something nice to do.  take weekend off, go away do something :0) 

DO NOT THINK ABOUT APRIL DEADLINE OR OTHER CHAPTERS WHEN TRYING TO DO THIS ONE.  One thing at a time.  Right here, right now, you are doing the discussion chapter.  Not reviewing anything, not rewriting anything, not planning anything.  Just focus on reading for the discussion.

OKAY!  I think I have sorted my problem.  Date I am aiming for: 12 March.  Work I want done: disc ch written.  No more, no less.  Am focused.

x J

Exciting Times

So, personal crisis sort of over I am back properly.  I am also out of the doldrums of existential angst thanks to DB hurrah!

We went away over the weekend to get away from horrid work and house and demands and life generally and came up with an ace plan to go travelling for a bit at the end of the year :0)  I am SOOOO excited and cannot wait.  I am dreaming of palm fringed beaches, beach huts, grilled fish and rice, snorkelling and calm turquoise seas :0)  Bean will be nearly 3 so potty trained etc and the thought of him spending every day with us and the sea and sand and just chilling out (haha, he will be exhausted more likely) is a dream!  We want to go to NZ, see a few people we know in Oz and I would like to go somewhere a bit kinky (well, with a toddler!) like the phillipines, soloman islands or fiji.  We only really properly talked about it last night but are both hugely excited and are getting together a rough plan.

This has served to give us a real sense of purpose and lifted us out of the horror that is just working to earn money, to get a house, to have another baby, to just exist.  We are going to live!  To relax for a few months, and then come back refreshed and ready for a new phase of our lives down south when I can get a job and then get preggers and we can start afresh.  It also means we have an end in sight for living oop north which, as much as I love it, I think it is time.

Which is so bizarre because last week I thought I wanted nothing more than to stay here: we have a nice house, nice jobs, well, we are just settled, but we didn't realise that we weren't settled so much as in a horribly unrewarding rut.  We love love love travel and experiencing other cultures and learning new languages and even though this is a home-from-home adventure really we would love to see Oz and NZ and see our friends and have, I suppose, relatively safe adventures, being with beanie and all.

Ooooh!

So now my PhD seems like just a small thing compared to a big plan that takes us to nearly this time next year.  However, the PhD is also looming rather large.  In fact it is right in my grille ;0)  I have no time to do a LOT as I have wasted the past two weeks being a quamire of, well, utter shit.  Having a goal to work towards is really very motivating :0)

God as well, my hands are really swollen!  Why?  I can't wear my rings and so this is freaking me out.  I have to make a doctors appt but am frightened!  I shall, I shall.  We have a history of rheumatoid arthritus in my family so am frickened, I don't want it.

Righty.  Must make my new plan and do some work!  head out of clouds!  Might just quickly buy a guidebook or two first :0)

x J

Thursday 2 February 2012

knack all

Oh crikey, I have done nothing today.

I am really shattered and cannot read anything :0(  I am trying to read my supervisor's latest article and I just cannot read.  I have to re read every sentence again and again.  I am most unimpressed, particularly after yesterday's success, I thought it would be another good day today, and particularly because it is Thursday -  usually work well on Thursdays knowing that it is the end of the week for me.

I think I know what is up.  I am very tired.  I am stressy and also I am feeling really down about work.  I think, or maybe personal down-ness is affecting work feelings?!  Too confusing?!  Try being me today!  :0) 

bah.  Who knows, i reckon I will spend then next hour wandering about the house aimlessly.

No, I know.  I am in on my own tonight with little dude, so shall plan to do some work tonight maybe instead?  Let my brain chill and then come back to it later...  although I think I may be tired and grumpy then too ;0)

Arf.  I should just hide in a cupboard until tomorrow!

x J

Planning day :0)

Oh I love a good planning day.

Today is about reaquainting (I've spelt that wrong I think?!) myself with my timeline and with my ideas and reading for the discussion.  I have moderately revised my timeline and stuck it on my wall and am most pleased with it.  I have 5 weeks to read and write my discussion chapter which is pretty fine (i think eek) and the rest is all fine.  I will then do some reading and get back into the flow of da woik!

My toddler was up all last night being antsy and i feel run down today so nt working to full steam.  Feel like I am working through a fog and burst into tears when DB started talking to me about taxes!  Nice easy day today thank goodness ;0)

x J

Wednesday 1 February 2012

How to make a bad PhD chapter good

In the words of clare who just left a comment!

Sooooooo.  I do not know the answer to this, of course.  However I do know what I am doing and what my sup wants me to do, so will scribble that down if it helps anyone.  I am sure it will help me in the future as I always forget and have to go back to my checklist of how to write a chapter :0)  Oh, as well, I can only advise on humanities subjects as that is what I am doing.

Firstly, remember that this is a test of academic rigour, not trying to change the world.  So whatever your thesis make sure your references, knowledge, reading and theory is tight - this is actually what you are being marked on, not how wonderful the idea is (although this obviously contributes to your success, but isn't the be-all-and-end-all).  This is also not a test of journalism.  You are trying to show the development of your ideas as well as your current knowledge.  that some of the stuff you are talking about happened five years ago and doesn't seem relevant is actually a good thing.  In your viva you will probably talk about how your ideas have developed - this shows your growth as an academic.

Okay.  Big one this.  Make sure your chapter is argument driven.  I read back through an old one and realised that I had laid out the information, then stated my conclusion from it.  This is Wrong.  From the outset you need to say, 'this chapter is showing THIS and THIS'.  'It is argued that...'  Be explicit!  Examiners do not want to be kept guessing.

Which leads me to point two.  Make sure your chapter is well signposted.  State from the outset what you want to say.  Then say how you are going to say it, who influences you (philosophy/theory/academic argument wise) and why it is important.  As you go through your chapter you will have subheadings, make sure that at the end of each important section you summarise what you just said, and at the start of the next section say what that part is going to say.  This may seem super repetitive but if what you are saying is quite complex it keeps your reader with you, and happy.  It also helps you to summarise - it makes you realise if you can't summarise what you have just written it is most likely a stream of unreadable consciousness.  You need to keep your reader with you, so clearly mark sections under subheadings (have lots to start with if it helps then narrow them down later if you want), write what is relevant under that subheading and move on.  This will keep your info contained, neat and understandable.  My last chapter had a whole load that read: 'and then so and so said this, and I found that and this shows this and this and that' and it was hard to follow.  The arguments (even if I do say so myself) were grand but I felt out of breath reading it and a bit stressed.  If you signpost and spoon feed the info to your reader they will love you for it and surely forgive lesser errors :0).

Bear in mind that your examiners will probably skim-read your thesis (so says my Sup, a Professor Emeritus), paying particular attention to your introductions and conclusions for the info.  So these need to be tight, extremely clear and just wonderful.  If there is a chance these are the only things your examiner might hope to read if they are good this could give them a wonderful impression of your nous and fabulous intellect and stop them reading too much of the meat (which would be ace!) ;0)  It should tell them exactly what you are saying and why, and, as I said above, show off your knowledge by saying who you are drawing your argument from - such as:  'Drawing from foucault's contention that bla de bla, the chapter shows that...'  Name drop shamelessly.

According to my sup, research and chapters never argue, they show/illustrate/demonstrate.  I was always saying 'this chapter argues that'.  No, apparently not. 

Be aware of wordiness.  Keep your own glossary/thesaurus of lovely words you come across.  Do try and be accessible though, you don't want an examiner being suspicious that you are hiding behind fancy words, or even worse, read something you wrote out to you at the VIVA and you have no idea what it meant ;0)

Make sure you cross reference between your chapters.  Remember if you explained something before/will elaborate something in the future and draw attention to this.  This will bind the thesis together, make you look like you know what you are saying and is a nice way to show off that you knew something, somewhere, once.  Cross referencing also refers to talking about stuff in you wrote in another chapter but with a new bent on it, or referring to a theoretical angle/philosophy etc again.

In your 'contentions' chapters (ones that aren't descriptive like the intro/concl are) make an effort to refer to your theory/principal contention/philosophy at least six times in an 8000 word piece.  This will keep you focused on bringing it up and refering back to it while in the quagmire of relating fieldwork/discourse analysis etc.  This makes you Well Clever and is most definitely necessary for PhD standard.

If your thesis is the standard 80-100,000 word length aim for each chapter to be 8,000 words. 

Don't forget to ask yourself 'why' (does this matter) and then 'why', again.  The second 'why' will automatically bring up your analysis to Clever levels :0

And make sure that the end of the chapter sums up and ties together the contentions made within.  Else it will be all parts and no sum :0) and nonsense.

I can't think of much else.

So, when you have written a chapter ask yourself:

Is it argument driven?
Is it well signposted?
Are the intro and concl tight as tight can be?
Is it concise?
Have you cross referenced between chapters?
Have you paid attention to your theory/academic bent/philosophical influences?
Have you said 'why', and then 'why' again?
Are all the contentions tied together at the end?

And, by my reckoning, if you have these things down it should be a nicely written chapter methinks.

I am sure I have missed out something major but really can't remember what!  Please feel free to add!

x J

Done!

So the chapter is finally edited to first draft standard (I hope)...

Phew!  And whee!

I do still need to go through and add a couple of refs and neaten one sentence but I need a book to do that which I don't have.  I can do that when I am going through each chapter just before I hand in.  At least the argument is there, the structure is sound, the intro and conclusion is done, there is good signposting, cross referencing and I have made sure I have brought it all together at the end.

Sooo, hurray.

Tomorrow I am replanning my timeplan (seeing as this is two weeks overdue.  heck) on a massive wall calender I got free with lurpack (! lucky me!) and putting that up in pride of place in my office, then need to just revisit my discussion plans I had going, then I shall get back to my reading!  i am really lookng forward to not having to do any writing I have to say.

okay dokey, going to get ready to pick up mah boy now.  I am so relieved and really quite impressed that personal circumstances have not completely disabled me for another week :0)

x J

hahhaaaa!

I've nearly done it!

Whee!  Am well out of page 11!  I just finished that bit then the next whole section of about 10 pages was just dandy! 

I am off now for some r and r, then shall come back, check this last section (which I have edited before so i know it is fine) and then this avo just need to make sure the intro and concl are representative of the, largely tinkered with. whole. 

I still have some refs to check and one sentence to neaten but i know to look in a certain book and get a quote so that is easy enough.  I can't be bothered to do that now, i shall do it when I am generally going through with my pedant stick at a later date.

Then I shall be DONE with editing this chapter hurrah!  It is tip top toodally bing bong.

Tomorrow I shall be back to reading for the discussion, hurray!

x J

re-write, re-write, re-write

I reckon, surely, that by the time I have finished jiggery pokering about with this chapter it will be exactly as it was when I first started messing with it

Seriously, I don't think there is a paragraph left that hasn't been moved around!  And I am back to being on page 11.  Bleedin' page 11.  I did get beyond it yesterday, but then today realised I had to go back and make sure it all flowed properly, which it most certainly didn't.  It was a stream of consciousness.  So today I have been making sure that it is in clear sections that flow logically into one another so as to create my argument. 

Oh to get beyond page 11.

x J