Worked My Socks Off

Last night I worked really, really hard and today I reap the rewards!

I cam up at about 5.30pm; I was sent up actually as I was just being crotchety downstairs :)  And I worked until 8pm until X Factor started and I did 1500 words!  Typed up a whole section of one of my theories.  Went to bed, thought it was rubbish ALL night and went back through it this morning thinking I would have to re-draft it but it is just fine :)  Yay!

Now I am tidying up the theory section, explaining briefly how the three work together and then I shall leave the dreaded, hideous, boring theory section to get on with the hideous, boring, evil methods section!  Am chuffed to bits though, am actually ahead of time for finishing the first rough draft of this chapter before beggering off on holiday on Thursday :) 

SO pleased, I can't begin to tell you.  The joy of it is that I have detailed plans for all of this chapter - I have obviously been here before.  I have brainstorms of all the main ideas from each theory and have even written who said what and, most importantly, the reference!  So all I have to do is type it up, I only need to look at the notes to plump ideas out.  Fabulous planning.

x J

Feeling Much Better!

I have done some good work today!

I did an hour, took an hour off, did an hour and will do some more and then slope off again for a bit.  I can hear my family outside and I want to be there too! 

I have managed to sort out the melee that was my chapter and have a semblence of order to it.  I have been ruthlessly avoiding proper editing; I have got the right text in vaguely the right place but not edited it or sorted the sentences so they are neatly conjoined and sensible.  This I can do after the holiday, for now I am all about adding text and making the chapter structurally tolerable :)

Am so glad I worked today, even though I am feeling a bit rough.  (Feeling a bit under the weather as the day goes on, better not have got Bean's skanky cold!)  I really didn't want to work earlier and when I thought about why I realised it was because I didn't really know what was going on with the chapter.  It was a big confusing mess and I did not like it!  Which made me realise i need to work on it more than ever then; I don't think there is a better reason to have to work than when you don't know what is going on with it. Sometimes chapters just are like big knots that need untangling and I HATE this!  Am not patient with it at all, I just want to get on with it.

Anyway, I have sorted it and gradually the chapter is starting to make sense to me again.  Thank goodness, I can watch X-factor and eat my chinese leftovers in peace :)

And I have inadvertently written another 500 words.  Hurrah.

x J

Saturday, Sunny, am bastard Working :)

Yep.  Only while bean naps but still, here I am working when the sun is out and I have the saturday paper to read.

Tbh I have to admit the principle reason I am up here is because DB is working downstairs and made me feel guilty.  And I will have two weeks of sun from Thursday...  But still, it is sunny and saturday and I don't want to!

I have done my first ten minutes and feel miles better for doing so.  I am hating doing this chapter so much!  I hate it, it is soooooooo boring and I have said it all a million times throughout the research and now have to explain why I use each theory and am sick of it :)  I suppose it is the last time though... 

Better get back to it.  Am so pleased am working!  I will work until bean gets up then will be back again later from about 5pm till 8.

x J

did it hehe

I did do some work.  I sloped off for 15 mins until I realised that i just need to sort out the structure so I can come to it tomorrow and be writing and not faffing.

Had to do the ten minute sections to know I only had to sit for 10 mins at a time!

Sorted it out, now can go and relax :)

x J

Can't do it

I can't work.  I just can't. 

Am shattered and my brain has gone soft; I don't know my arse from my elbow.  I would like to, but it just isn't going to happen.

I am going to go downstairs and stare at the tv instead.  I am allowed a day off a week and guess today is it!  I didn't want to have a day off before going on holiday but my brain is fugged.  I shall listen to it and begger off and come back tomorrow hopefully properly refreshed and ready to go...

x J

Have to work

I took last night off, and all of today and am back and feeling MUCH better than yesterday!

Some time away really does help.  I was putting bean to bed alst night and I realised what I need to do to make this chapter work for me again and I don't think I would have worked that out if I had been stressily trying to write. 

Basically it needs a more nuanced structure for the theory instead of just blathering on about the theories I am using into an endless black hole.  I have decided to structure it by saying what chapter each thory works for (is different for each as each is a different ofucs of analysis; unusal but works in my case), how it will be used, and why other approaches wouldn't work. 

I really want to have the theory stuff done by Monday...  I don't know if this will be possible or not...  But I can't bear the idea of going on holiday on Thurs and hving to come back to write new stuff for this chapter.  Coming back an editing will be bearable...

Anyway, better get on.  Just working until 8pm tonight to keep my hand in really.  Want to edit the chapter into the new sub sections and tidy it up and maybe write a bit more.

x J

Still Tired and Bored!

This my 1000th post!  jeez louise. 

I did my work and then some!  I did some more typing up, have moved onto a new section and have copy and pasted some stuff from an old dissertation into my new section.  The chapter is about 6000 words long.

But I haven't even touched the SIDES of it!  The theory section is weak and too long and I have yet to tie my different theories into each other and say why I am not doing other theories.  The methods I have still to do blardy bla, is all so dull. 

I am mashed.  My brain is taking a holiday early it seems and just wants to switch off!  I am concentrating ok but what is coming out is pretty basic stuff.  I can't seem to reach my Inner Analyst, it seems she is on holiday early :)  Along with Academic Eloquance and Memory.

I do get like this on a Thursday if I have worked hard each day Bean has been with the childminder.  And I worked the past two evenings (I think).  I have been working a lot but havem't really got anywhere :(  Am so sad and a bit frightened.  I have a lot to do before we go on holiday and the thought of what I have to do, the fear of not doing it and being stressy on holiday, and the thought of having to do it when I get back after two weeks away, is getting pretty high and not helping!  Am getting a bit stressed!

I think I need some time away.  Put it away and come back refreshed on Saturday.  yes, saturday.  I might have to come back tomorrow though.  I will come back tomorrow.  The thing is every day I don't do my 500 words is another day without 500 words and actually it doesn't take me long to do.  Am just tired now is all.  I will come back and do more tomorrow when DB is bathing Bean.

I won't work tonight though, I will just mope around feeling guilty for not working ;0)  I must get some SLEEP!  Am knackered!

x J