This week is hospital week so I shall not be working.
Technically I am meant to return to work next Thursday. Am completely dreading it and hope to get an extension but don't think I will. I can't bear to come back and straight away be working all the hours like I was before, just to break even, not even produce anything of any merit (see recent whiny discussion chapter posts).
however, I do want this bloody thing out of my life! having had time off, even though it has been shite time off, it has been lovely for my household. i am not grabbing time wherever, I am not distracted (apart from the random weepy moments) when with Bean, if DB needs to work over a weekend he can, and i am fine about that, instead of shouting and ranting at him about how that is 'my' time. We go on outings even! And, ultimately, I am a much nicer person.
Really, I didn't know how much my work was making me a nightmare to be around. I don't want to go back there!
Well, anyway, I have to for another couple of months. Then from the end of July I can be free to frolick for a bit.
Frolick!
x J
Technically I am meant to return to work next Thursday. Am completely dreading it and hope to get an extension but don't think I will. I can't bear to come back and straight away be working all the hours like I was before, just to break even, not even produce anything of any merit (see recent whiny discussion chapter posts).
however, I do want this bloody thing out of my life! having had time off, even though it has been shite time off, it has been lovely for my household. i am not grabbing time wherever, I am not distracted (apart from the random weepy moments) when with Bean, if DB needs to work over a weekend he can, and i am fine about that, instead of shouting and ranting at him about how that is 'my' time. We go on outings even! And, ultimately, I am a much nicer person.
Really, I didn't know how much my work was making me a nightmare to be around. I don't want to go back there!
Well, anyway, I have to for another couple of months. Then from the end of July I can be free to frolick for a bit.
Frolick!
x J
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